Overcoming Life Dilema

I don't know if  this decision is the best decision I ever done or is it the most wise decision I ever made?? Been too much depending on other people all this time. Never been really dependent to myself in making up decision. I know its real tough to stand alone and it wasn't my first time but still every moved that I made is giving me pain in my nerves. Somehow I learn that life is always difficult nothing comes easy and everyday is a struggle but it depend on us either we want to live in pain/dissapoinment or embrace every moment,every step in overcoming life struggles.
          I have a dream, I wanted to travel the world and have a good life but there is no doubt along the way we will always learn something new and there is always something that stop us from reaching our dream. This year I been wanted to lose few kg and get into better shape than I always been for few years, it was so hard at the beginning but I managed to lose few kg somehow and now I can wear something bit better than I was before. My next mission  is to travel the world while working,Im working out for it and on my way to save some money. As it is in whatever we plan it will not always get it as how we wanted it to work. I go through this problem just at my 1st month working in  singapore, one night come back home to Johor Bahru from Singapore. They told me at the Malaysia Immigration Custom that I wouldn't be able to come back to Singapore because of my Education Loans problem and I have to settle things up before they can let me go to Singapore the next day.
        Things never been easy and I just started my job in Singapore for a month. If they stop me from going to Singapore I will have problem financially. It makes me think if I rather settle wth Malaysia government or come bck to singapore at d same night before they stop me the next day. So, I was confused for instance and as I come back home I lay down my bed and think either I go to Kuala Lumpur and not knowing when it will settle or come back to singapore before it was too late and settle things while im in singapore.
           From thinking going to Kuala Lumpur,I changed my way to Singapore instead.Getting my friend to hold my room keys which I give my whole trust on him to deal things for me while I am much aware that I wouldn't able to go any other country if I dnt go that night,by God grace its like a miracle Im out from Malaysia and now living in Singapore. I will continue another day how I overcome my struggle,so for now be happy live life..

After The Resignation

It takes me sometime to get my own space to do this blogging.. I think its almost  months of not updating what has been going on on the moment. I seriously have resign my job and get into a real journey of my own world with so much of drama around the road..Hahahaahaha...The story happen to be so funny, exciting and some of the feelings is not easy to be explain to everybody. I went through pain,dissapointment and found my own happiness but still working out for it. I managed to get a job in Singapore once and for all somewhere in Orchard,and from just applying as a waitress they given me on the go training for Management Trainee. Way far from what I expected,and along the time passed been to so much pain then happiness.. Hahahaha.. Feeling blessed for what I have received so far even there is sometime pain i hve to endure and i have to take to grow and become an adult.
  We have to believe that anywhere in this world will always be somebody who doesnt like our existance but we also have to believe that also there is somewhere around the world where ppl real need us to become part of their life. Whatever it is,always be thankfull for God gift today and have the courage to walk in the storm. There is so much to talk about but i will keep updating my blog again once im free.

Be Positive

Monday morning seems bit dull for me since I already came back from my holiday and was thinking what will I do next apart from thinking next after a week I would be jobless..Ahaha Ahahahaha.. Feel funny with myself and the same time I feel sorry for myself that I have to take this action which is something nobody ever expect EVER.. Please ask me do i ever regret making up this decision??  I would say maybe at first there is a bit regret but it changed my way of thinking completely toward life.
    Its either you want to let yourself down or you raised up with your own 2 feet and fight back for your happiness or live in the life that you never want to live. Life BEEN CRUEL to me..Ahaha..Its so funny how we can actually say this word out without even think for a second if  Life is really had been so cruel to me or you. Real common words said by people who are down.Life is an option, I dont believe in such things as HOPE. Ok, I admit it sometime I do hope eventhough I dont believe in it.But, dont just HOPE work for what you HOPE for in your life,because even God cant fullfilled what we wish for in Life if we dont work for it.The Key is WORK FOR WHAT YOU WISH FOR IN LIFE,MOVE YOUR BUTTS OFF.

    You need a miracle in life?? work for the miracle to happen. There will be no miracle to happen if you are just sitting on your coach wishing you will get what you want in life. I been sitting in front of my office chair for so long thinking when i will take that further step. Been thinking about almost so much consequences that i have to face after really terrify me. My time is wasted and I achieved nothing for me to be proud of. What I get is just anger,dissapointment,bitterness and all the negative impacts for sitting too long thinking if I should resign or not from my job. Living alone and being Single,will never been so lonely apart from thinking about life struggle its boring. Its really,really are boring. Haha,go out from your boring line. I know you are alone and single but just dont make it a reason to be lonely. Being alone is never means you are lonely.. NEVER.. it should also never means you wouldnt be happy..Happiness has no limit, even couples also have their loneliness time isnt it wonderfull thinking you are alone but you are still happy with your life.

Decision Making

It's a day full of blessing. Maybe in some point it sound so rediculous to be grateful and still be happy when the day seems just the same like any other day but still telling yourself this day or today is a blessing. Was sitting on my couch,awake early each morning on my holiday break with no plannings. Looking for some answers perhaps will I be able to see or breathe a new miracle coming along my way.
After 2 weeks Im going to be jobless since I have made my decision to quit not even before my holiday. The most terrifying and horrible situation I have to face is how am I going to survived being jobless and alone. While the same time I would need to packed my things and moved out from my house to cut the living cost after I quit my job since I wouldnt able to afford to live like I used to.
Thinking about all the consequences,It's just going to give me headache and maybe regrets. But, I think I have made the right decision to quit my job that I thought the best job I ever had all this time after I finished my study. I just want to be happy but nothing even worse than being lonely and need to push yourself to be happy on the job with terrible people around you. I start to feel irritated with everyone especially to my Indian colleagues,job is already irritating for me but you are making things worse. Scissor noise become an issue to find trouble with me. Whatever,I dont put my status the same level as the other person who are irritating me. I have seen amazing wonderfull indian people in my life which they are damn good to me.
One bad doesnt make everybody bad. Maybe its time for me to leave even if she doesn't do this to me. I still choose to leave because I just want to be happy and I dont want to defined my loneliness as the reason for being sick sticking around with people. Sometime, what we need is a time for ourselves to feel content with life. Away from the life hustle and people's drama,everyone is being fake and how I wish I can open their undercover masks.