Be Positive

Monday morning seems bit dull for me since I already came back from my holiday and was thinking what will I do next apart from thinking next after a week I would be jobless..Ahaha Ahahahaha.. Feel funny with myself and the same time I feel sorry for myself that I have to take this action which is something nobody ever expect EVER.. Please ask me do i ever regret making up this decision??  I would say maybe at first there is a bit regret but it changed my way of thinking completely toward life.
    Its either you want to let yourself down or you raised up with your own 2 feet and fight back for your happiness or live in the life that you never want to live. Life BEEN CRUEL to me..Ahaha..Its so funny how we can actually say this word out without even think for a second if  Life is really had been so cruel to me or you. Real common words said by people who are down.Life is an option, I dont believe in such things as HOPE. Ok, I admit it sometime I do hope eventhough I dont believe in it.But, dont just HOPE work for what you HOPE for in your life,because even God cant fullfilled what we wish for in Life if we dont work for it.The Key is WORK FOR WHAT YOU WISH FOR IN LIFE,MOVE YOUR BUTTS OFF.

    You need a miracle in life?? work for the miracle to happen. There will be no miracle to happen if you are just sitting on your coach wishing you will get what you want in life. I been sitting in front of my office chair for so long thinking when i will take that further step. Been thinking about almost so much consequences that i have to face after really terrify me. My time is wasted and I achieved nothing for me to be proud of. What I get is just anger,dissapointment,bitterness and all the negative impacts for sitting too long thinking if I should resign or not from my job. Living alone and being Single,will never been so lonely apart from thinking about life struggle its boring. Its really,really are boring. Haha,go out from your boring line. I know you are alone and single but just dont make it a reason to be lonely. Being alone is never means you are lonely.. NEVER.. it should also never means you wouldnt be happy..Happiness has no limit, even couples also have their loneliness time isnt it wonderfull thinking you are alone but you are still happy with your life.

Decision Making

It's a day full of blessing. Maybe in some point it sound so rediculous to be grateful and still be happy when the day seems just the same like any other day but still telling yourself this day or today is a blessing. Was sitting on my couch,awake early each morning on my holiday break with no plannings. Looking for some answers perhaps will I be able to see or breathe a new miracle coming along my way.
After 2 weeks Im going to be jobless since I have made my decision to quit not even before my holiday. The most terrifying and horrible situation I have to face is how am I going to survived being jobless and alone. While the same time I would need to packed my things and moved out from my house to cut the living cost after I quit my job since I wouldnt able to afford to live like I used to.
Thinking about all the consequences,It's just going to give me headache and maybe regrets. But, I think I have made the right decision to quit my job that I thought the best job I ever had all this time after I finished my study. I just want to be happy but nothing even worse than being lonely and need to push yourself to be happy on the job with terrible people around you. I start to feel irritated with everyone especially to my Indian colleagues,job is already irritating for me but you are making things worse. Scissor noise become an issue to find trouble with me. Whatever,I dont put my status the same level as the other person who are irritating me. I have seen amazing wonderfull indian people in my life which they are damn good to me.
One bad doesnt make everybody bad. Maybe its time for me to leave even if she doesn't do this to me. I still choose to leave because I just want to be happy and I dont want to defined my loneliness as the reason for being sick sticking around with people. Sometime, what we need is a time for ourselves to feel content with life. Away from the life hustle and people's drama,everyone is being fake and how I wish I can open their undercover masks.