Overcoming Life Dilema

I don't know if  this decision is the best decision I ever done or is it the most wise decision I ever made?? Been too much depending on other people all this time. Never been really dependent to myself in making up decision. I know its real tough to stand alone and it wasn't my first time but still every moved that I made is giving me pain in my nerves. Somehow I learn that life is always difficult nothing comes easy and everyday is a struggle but it depend on us either we want to live in pain/dissapoinment or embrace every moment,every step in overcoming life struggles.
          I have a dream, I wanted to travel the world and have a good life but there is no doubt along the way we will always learn something new and there is always something that stop us from reaching our dream. This year I been wanted to lose few kg and get into better shape than I always been for few years, it was so hard at the beginning but I managed to lose few kg somehow and now I can wear something bit better than I was before. My next mission  is to travel the world while working,Im working out for it and on my way to save some money. As it is in whatever we plan it will not always get it as how we wanted it to work. I go through this problem just at my 1st month working in  singapore, one night come back home to Johor Bahru from Singapore. They told me at the Malaysia Immigration Custom that I wouldn't be able to come back to Singapore because of my Education Loans problem and I have to settle things up before they can let me go to Singapore the next day.
        Things never been easy and I just started my job in Singapore for a month. If they stop me from going to Singapore I will have problem financially. It makes me think if I rather settle wth Malaysia government or come bck to singapore at d same night before they stop me the next day. So, I was confused for instance and as I come back home I lay down my bed and think either I go to Kuala Lumpur and not knowing when it will settle or come back to singapore before it was too late and settle things while im in singapore.
           From thinking going to Kuala Lumpur,I changed my way to Singapore instead.Getting my friend to hold my room keys which I give my whole trust on him to deal things for me while I am much aware that I wouldn't able to go any other country if I dnt go that night,by God grace its like a miracle Im out from Malaysia and now living in Singapore. I will continue another day how I overcome my struggle,so for now be happy live life..